when the psycho bitch bites

i supposedly searched any kind of reading material about the coming test, which is on Gulliver's Travel, but as i believed that it also happened to everyone, i end up found something else.

i took a personality disorder test under the sub-heading of psychology test in which it can tell you what kind of psychotic you are. as for the result,  i scored almost at all section, moderate. so i am not paranoid, not an anti social, i dont have a schizotypal disorders, so i am almost beyond normal until i figure out that i scored very high at histrionic, and high at narcissistic and obsessive-compulsive sect.


now, it is very interesting to know what is histrionic. i stumbled upon this because i didn't know what it meant. thought that histrionic might derive from word 'history' and i was so wrong.

People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention. Histrionics also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative.

dang! i was shocked by this brief explanation about what is histrionics and i laughed as soon as i read this. not trying to be an actual histrionic, the practice of analysing text and characters enable me to scrutinize the finding. i may be and may not be a constant attention seeker. although i love to be something out of the norm, my dress and hijab are sometimes eccentric but i am not the one who everyone remembers the most. i confess that i often interrupting others and knowing this is not good at all, i try to interrupt lesser. the un-highlighted traits, i made no fuss of it. there is nothing to rebuke about because i am not as described.


the next line that i have redden , is a 50-50 situation, in one hand it is true and the other hand, it is arguable. tend to exaggerate friendships perhaps, yes. an instance of this, i love to emphasize one special trait if i found her pleased to be with and so i'll tell the people surround about it. however i don't believe that everyone loves me, makes me wanna laugh of this. i made fiends more than i suppose too. so, i proved the test is not accurate.

and fyi, i am by nature manipulative. it is an innate ability or talent i should call. muahahahahha.

manipulative - skillful in influencing or controlling others to your own advantage

the next high scored in the finding, is narcissistic. ok, i don't feel the wrong of being one, not if you are fighting alone against the world but become overly obsessed with yourself might resulting tragedies in your life. in my case i certainly have reasons to be one, because there are so much flaws that i have and being a narcissist help me to boost the confident level.

it is fucking annoying to be me sometimes, because i understand myself more than i suppose too.