it's depressing to be the Queen, so i stabbed myself.

i am not crazy enough to stab myself but that is what happened to Natalie Portman in Black Swan. her new movie that is somewhat related to the Swan Lake fairytale. 

Swan Lake is a classic ballet performance that is fashioned by the Russian folktale. it is about a princess who   is turned into a swan by the evil sorcerer and only true love kiss can repel the curse. she found the prince charming that could break the spell but he is later seduced by the black swan and made the swan queen shattered and broken into pieces. and that, my friends, has driven her into suicidal. 

do not get confuse this original version with the Barbie's version. although, it derives from the same source but it is entirely different. as for Barbie, the ending is happy because it's for children, you know. but i love all the Barbies movies. 

so now we know the foundation story of the Swan Lake and so lets move to Black Swan, the movie.  as a whole, it is a movie of obsession and depression. although the theme is very ladylike (ballet) but the whole plot is dark.  it is basically about Nina the ballerina who is chosen to be the Swan Queen among of all the girls who yearn that role. nina, who is very timid fragile and feeble, definitely suits to be the Swan Queen but she is lack of passion to be the seductive Black Swan. hence on the ongoing process to be the evil black Nina, she hallucinated, and masturbated, a lot and that just made her losing her sanity.

it is a good movie as it received good rating from the critics, but it is fucking scary too. the whole movie witnesses the role changed of Nina, from the white feeble swan into the black evil swan. later at the end, she finally changed the whole skin and become the evil Nina who stabbed the white Nina. there are many obscene scenes though, and all gobsmacked me like the time when she stabbed her own face by the knife, when she plucked a black feather at the back of her, and when she straggles in hallucination of killing lily. oh man, i was like wth is going on with the timid obedient Nina. 

the symbolic scene of her plucking the black feather is another way to declare nina as 'im  a crazy psycho bitch, dont mess with me'. this movie has not reached the Malaysia's cinema as many of great movies  haven't. perhaps the content, or maybe the many 'touch-myself' moment. but still, it is a great movie. Natalie P's act is so real and convincing, and the move is not all about one losing her mind but it's about how the greed of power can drive one to commit obscene acts. 

how about making a movie of how the Malaysian go crazy, but the main prop should be the acid. or the laser?

oh well.