eventually...

so i am done with the exam, and proudly declaring i finally completed the three years of being a student, Alhamdulillah for that. today is my last day in Penang, though i will be going back to USM in the middle of May, but this is pretty much the end of everything. everyone's leaving, some staying, i am leaving too. i am glad that i end these 3 years, happily, normally, like others would be feeling. it feels good that everything went well although at the end, you find yourself not in the same circle as you were in the first year, but it doesn't matter. that is life. eventually, it changes. i feel great that i leave the uni's life with no ill-hearted feeling, no grudge, all forgiven, al iz well.

my only concern now is to think of what-to-be, and how to be the-what-to-be. i need to find a job. one that can give me money, one that makes me happy, one that i love. i can do pretty much anything, but definitely not doctor, engineer, accountant, etc, the technical field. so my choices are to be in communication field, editing, writing or PR-ing? and then the education field and perhaps in administration like HR and what not. but if you ask me, what i love the most, i choose to be in communication scope, anything to do with entertainment enlighten me. still, i do have this slightest worry about these future work thingy, but then there is always few positive-friends smacked this thought down and said 'have a little faith'. and they are right, i have studied for 4 years, and it's time to face the world. so, i talked to myself, consoled the anxiety, 'just stop worrying too much, it does not even help you find a job'.

hence, so good luck to everyone. ive heard one of my course-mate, already got a job. few want to pursue masters. and i will be out there, among the struggling jobseeker. hoho. whatever, wherever you guys will be, may Lord be with thee.

oh well.